Believe

I dedicate this post to one of the many fairy tales I still believe in.

 

Live:  Lots of thinking today.  I suspect this will come out random and unrelated but it's weaved into a perfectly sensible mess in my head! ;)  First, I thought about how black and white life seemed when I was younger.  A very bad day translated to "I want to die".  "You really pissed me off" translated to "You're an asshole and this is over."  Now I don't see black and white.  Nor do I see shades of grey.  My life is filled with varying hues of pinks, beiges, teals, and violets, interwoven like  a rainbow or quilt. Or one of those sand pictures that changes completely every time you shake it.  Still essentially made up of sand.  Or love.  This reminded me (not that I needed a reminder, it's not often I forget) of someone I loved a lot but let go over stuff like showing up late or showing up after a few too many beers.  In my black and white days this was intolerable.  Looking back, I wish I'd kissed him and been happy he showed up.  A few more years on me have shown me that the intention of those that love you mixed in with the simple fact that, whether it makes sense or not you simply love them is of much greater importance to me than the minor details.  No one is perfect.  When you love unconditionally, you love the imperfection.  Now that the days of black and white are over and the colors have meshed, I would give anything to have him here doing those very things that I found so annoying and intolerable.  Am I expressing regret?  Not any anymore.  Gratitude.  This difficult lesson, that has definitely shaped my life and relationships going forward, taught me an incredibly important lesson.  Love those you love in spite of and maybe even because of their "faults" and remember that those annoying moments that you think are getting in the way of your plan and your life actually ARE life.  Live them and enjoy them while they are with you. :)

 

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Adorable and funny but also excellent advice which I strongly encourage you to practice!

Run:  11-12 miles.  Was hoping for 12-14 but they were strong miles at a pace I am proud of.  Satisfaction achieved.

Love:  My beautiful family for giving me the opportunity to rejuvenate!